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Sunday, February 7, 2010
2:28 AM
Slow Dancing In A Burning Room
I think im doing exactly that. The longer i stay in my current state of mind, the more ill get 'burnt'.
Ive become so indifferent and numb to everything. Im living inordinately in the present, to the point that my first thoughts in the morning normally entail a mental countdown of hours to the end of the day. Spontaneity was supposed to be fun and liberating; but i see now that it's hard to be spontaneous when you are still not free from the burdens that weigh you down.
Incidentally, i realise im always blogging about myself being indifferent, depressed (not explicitly, but definitely hinted at) etc etc. 10 years from now, i foresee myself looking back and laughing at all my angsty posts. But till then, this is my only outlet to pour out all that i am feeling.
I need a spark. Anything, anyone.
*sigh*
___ .Do you remember our last meeting? ___
