Not an entirely pleasant week. Perhaps the physical exertions and weariness of NS life is slowly getting to me; or i might just be having one of THOSE weeks where i think too much. Plus, i think im coming down with a flu.
I think i try too hard to be a jack of all trades. I strive to do my best in everything; but very often i end up failing in most of my endeavours. 'Master of none' syndrome... I reckon i will never ever fall into the 'above average and above' category. Im average at best; woeful at my worst of times.
My awkwardness, inadequacies and other weaknesses(it's a long list) are simply becoming too much for me to endure. Mired in mediocrity, that's what the common expression is.
Hmm...
I wonder if im ready to give up everything here.
Leave on a jetplane..
My family, friends, the Singaporean way of life, all but a collection of memories filed away in my cerebrum.
As it is, im already losing touch with some of my friends.
And im missing what i never had.
Stigmatized - The Calling
If I give up on you I give up on me If we fight what's true, will we ever be Even God himself and the faith I knew Shouldn't hold me back, shouldn't keep me from you
[Chorus:] Tease me, by holding out your hand Then leave me, or take me as i am And live our lives, stigmatized
I can feel the blood rushing though my veins When i hear your voice, driving me insane Hour after hour day after day Every lonely night that i sit and pray
[Chorus]
We live our lives on different sides, But we keep together you and I Just live our lives, stigmatized
We'll live our lives, We'll take the punches everyday We'll live our lives I know we're gonna find our way
I believe in you Even if no one understands I believe in you, and i don't really give a damn If we're stigmatized We live our lives on different sides But we keep together you and I We live our lives on different sides
We gotta live our lives Gotta live our lives Were gonna live our lives We're gonna live our lives, Gonna live our lives, Stigmatized
